I'll Trust You Jesus... So...That just happened...

Here is a picture of my car as of yesterday afternoon...

Let me start by saying, no one was hurt.  Not even a sign of whiplash.  The truck I hit didn't even have a scratch on it.

I think a few people in my life would like to know what happened, so here it is.  Right or wrong, the light turned yellow in a 50mph intersection... I would have gone through the light, but the people in front of me decided not to. I tried to change lanes, but someone was in my blind spot leaving me not enough time to slam on my breaks and stop without hitting the people in-front of me.  It was my fault.  If I would have just begun to stop completely, without trying to change lanes, I would have been just fine.

What stinks: My car is damaged.  And I really like my car.  I don't want to have to get a new one any time soon... I am without my car for a few days... I was late to work...  I could have gone shopping with my mom and sister that morning instead... Why did I leave that house at just that moment...

What's AWESOME: I didn't get charged with anything.  I will still have a clear record after this is all said and done! No one was injured! No damage was done to the other person's vehicle. I still got all of my tasks done at work that day!  The air bags didn't deploy! It just so happened to be the day my dad could come and get me even though he was at work! Insurance will pay for the repairs.  And the damage, to my current knowledge, appears to be minimal.  Did I mention I didn't get a ticket and this doesn't go on my record?????? :)

While I was sitting in my car waiting for the cop to show up, I began to hyperventilate.  I've never experienced anything like that before, and I've never witnessed someone having a panic attach... It was freaky.  My entire face went numb.  As I was sitting there panicking in my car, I began to thank God for His protection, and I told Him I trusted Him.  No matter what went on with my car, the police, etc... I Trust You Jesus.  

This is where the song for today's entry comes from.  I really pulled this one out of the archives.  It was one of my favorite songs growing up, and I didn't even really get what the words meant at that point in my life.  But it is a great reminder today.  

I'll Trust You Jesus.  In the chorus of this song it says, "For every situation that has tried to make me doubt. You've anointed me, given faith to me, so my Lord I'll trust in You..."  These words really hit me this morning as I was thinking about the events of yesterday... I was totally thinking in my car yesterday... How did this happen? I thought You were supposed to protect me from things like this?  Where were You? What did I do wrong?  Doubt totally crept into my mind.  But as the day progressed and I realized (as listed above in the "What's AWESOME" section) the things that didn't happen to me, I saw God's hand all over my situation.  Once I told Him "I trust You" I immediately felt better.  I had peace that surpasses all understanding.  (Philippians 4:7)

Bottom line.  I'm okay!  I'm great!  Better than that, I'm fabulous!  Why? Because God took care of me, and will continue to take great care of me for the rest of eternity!  Trust in the Lord with all of your heart, and don't depend on your own understanding. Remember the Lord in all you do, and He will give you success. Don't depend on your own wisdom. Respect the Lord and refuse to do wrong." Proverbs 3:5-7 (NCV) I don't know why I had to experience that accident, but I know God will work it out for good. (Romans 8:28)

Today in my daily devotional these were the verses:

"Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds." James 1:2

"I can do everything through Him who gives me strength." Philippians 4:13

"You will keep in perfect peace Him whose mind is steadfast, because he trusts in You." Isaiah 26:3

The last paragraph of the devotional said "The way to walk through demanding days is to grip My hand tightly and stay in close communication with Me.  Let your thoughts and spoken words be richly flavored with trust and thankfulness.  Regardless of the day's problems, I can keep you in perfect Peace as you stay close to Me." -- Jesus Calling June 4 entry

What an encouragement for me! That is what I chose to do yesterday.   I chose to thank Him even when I couldn't see the bright side yet.  As I trusted Him, He began to show me just how blessed I am. 

What do you need to trust and thank God for?

Blessings!

"Thy Will Be Done" Not My Plan

Recently a new song has been playing on the radio.  "Thy Will Be Done" by Hillary Scott.  The first time I heard this song, it stopped me in my tracks!  I felt like I could have written the song myself, because of how well I could apply it to the events of the past 365 days.  Please take a listen before I continue.






Verse one talks about listening to God, and following His direction, only to end up in a place of confusion and hurt. And you're standing there asking God WHY!?! What did I do wrong!!!!

Verse two talks about living in that time of confusion and trying to figure out what happened. And how amazingly Awesome God is. One of my favorite lines in verse two: "just trying to make sense of all your promises... Sometimes I've got to stop. Remember that You're God, and I... am... not..."  I have definitely been in that place this past year.

Then there's the verse: "Thy Will Be Done..."  Those words have been something I have uttered a million times to God throughout my life. As many times as I have asked God for a husband, I have always ended my prayers with "Not my will, but Yours be done".  Thoughts have entered my mind that this prayer is why I don't have a husband right now... But these little seeds of thought are not of God.  God has the best plan for my life.  Nothing I do or come up with could match God's BEST PLAN for me.

The bridge says, "I know you see me, I know you hear me Lord, Your plans are for me, goodness You have in store..."  I have a hard time driving when I sing the bridge, for I just want to close my eyes and worship.   This is the truth.  Jeremiah 29:11 says, "'For I know the plans I have for you,' says the Lord, 'Plans to prosper you, and not to harm you, plans to give you a future and hope.'" The enemy tries to whisper in our ear that God isn't listening to our prayers, that He doesn't care about this "little thing" in our life, He has more important things to "worry" about.  All of these are lies.  The Bible warns us in 1 Peter 5:8, "Be of sober spirit, be on the alert. Your adversary, the devil, prowls around like a roaring lion, seeking someone to devour." (NASB) The Bible also tells us in John 10:10 that, "The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I (Jesus) came that they may have life, and have it abundantly." (NASB)

Don't believe the devil's lies.  He has no authority anymore.  Jesus became our Redeemer when He died for us on the cross.  We don't have to believe the lie that satan is still in charge.  He's NOT.  Don't be afraid to listen to the Holy Spirit.  Don't be afraid to follow God's best plan for your life.  It will not look like the world. 1 John 2:15-17, "Do not love this world nor the things it offers you, for when you love the world, you do not have the love of the Father in you. For the world offers only a craving for physical pleasure, a craving for everything we see, and pride in our achievements and possessions. These are not from the Father, but are from this world. And this world is fading away, along with everything that people crave. But anyone who does what pleases God will live forever."  Notice that promise at the end: But anyone who does what pleases God will live forever."  That is what I want.  I want to please God.  

"Thy will be done, on earth as it is in Heaven." -- Matthew 6:9-13

"I Will Trust in YOU" One of those days...

Have you ever had one of those days when you just want to scream at the top of your lungs!?!  Today is one of those days for me...

Last year, I thought that God told me I would meet my future husband before the month of September hit...  I thought I was going to get married to this mystery man over Labor Day weekend of last year.  I'm not sure where I went wrong...

Leading up to September, I talked to God just like I would talk to anyone.  It was an easy back and forth conversation between us.  I would talk to Him throughout the day every day.  But since September first... It hasn't been that easy.

I have been struggling with thoughts and doubt ever since.  What if most of the stuff I "heard" wasn't God speaking to me at all?  What if it was just my brain tricking me into predicting everything I was hoping and dreaming for?  I don't know the answers to these questions.  I don't know how to ask God these questions...  What do I do?

A song came on the radio one day after I'd had a huge counseling session with my mom about the events of last year.  It was exactly what I needed at the moment.  The lyrics to the song "I Will Trust in YOU" by Lauren Daigle were exactly what I have been thinking/praying/feeling these past few months.  And I would love for you to listen to this song.







The lyrics of this song are my prayer to God right now.  I am still having to do battle every day with my thoughts and emotions about what happened last year, but I am trusting God no matter what!

Yes, my relationship with my Lord and Savior is a bit different than it was last year.  I question things a lot more than ever before... I don't have those everyday one on one conversations... I believe those conversations are still a possibility, but honestly, I'm not sure how to go about it right now...  BUT, I still believe in Jesus! I still believe what the Word says!  I still pray everyday. I still read my Bible everyday.  I still trust God with my life.

I do NOT know what God's plan for my life is... I question it everyday.  But I will trust God with my life and His plan for it, no matter what!

~ S*