"I Will Trust in YOU" One of those days...

Have you ever had one of those days when you just want to scream at the top of your lungs!?!  Today is one of those days for me...

Last year, I thought that God told me I would meet my future husband before the month of September hit...  I thought I was going to get married to this mystery man over Labor Day weekend of last year.  I'm not sure where I went wrong...

Leading up to September, I talked to God just like I would talk to anyone.  It was an easy back and forth conversation between us.  I would talk to Him throughout the day every day.  But since September first... It hasn't been that easy.

I have been struggling with thoughts and doubt ever since.  What if most of the stuff I "heard" wasn't God speaking to me at all?  What if it was just my brain tricking me into predicting everything I was hoping and dreaming for?  I don't know the answers to these questions.  I don't know how to ask God these questions...  What do I do?

A song came on the radio one day after I'd had a huge counseling session with my mom about the events of last year.  It was exactly what I needed at the moment.  The lyrics to the song "I Will Trust in YOU" by Lauren Daigle were exactly what I have been thinking/praying/feeling these past few months.  And I would love for you to listen to this song.







The lyrics of this song are my prayer to God right now.  I am still having to do battle every day with my thoughts and emotions about what happened last year, but I am trusting God no matter what!

Yes, my relationship with my Lord and Savior is a bit different than it was last year.  I question things a lot more than ever before... I don't have those everyday one on one conversations... I believe those conversations are still a possibility, but honestly, I'm not sure how to go about it right now...  BUT, I still believe in Jesus! I still believe what the Word says!  I still pray everyday. I still read my Bible everyday.  I still trust God with my life.

I do NOT know what God's plan for my life is... I question it everyday.  But I will trust God with my life and His plan for it, no matter what!

~ S*

"Whatever" Your will be done on earth, as it is in Heaven

This morning I read Matthew chapter six.  In this chapter are many amazing teachings of Jesus.  One of which is the teaching about prayer.  Verses 8-13 are where “The Lord’s Prayer” come from.  Many of us know this prayer by heart, but I really enjoyed reading it in a different version than I have memorized it:

“When you pray, don’t babble on and on as people of other religions do. They think their prayers are answered merely by repeating their words again and again. Don’t be like them, for your Father knows exactly what you need even before you ask him! Pray like this: Our Father in heaven, may your name be kept holy. May your Kingdom come soon. May your will be done on earth, as it is in heaven. Give us today the food we need, and forgive us our sins, as we have forgiven those who sin against us. And don’t let us yield to temptation, but rescue us from the evil one.” (NLT)
As I read, I began to pray this verse in my own words.  As I prayed, I noticed some things I have never noticed before.

1.    We pray that God’s Kingdom come before we say “Your will be done”
2.    This prayer isn’t really focused on any one particular person.  Jesus isn’t praying for the guy
       over there; and He isn’t “praying for Himself” either.
3.    He tells us in verse eight not to merely repeat our words over and over again.

Point number one stood out to me because, it seems that we are praying for God’s Kingdom to come for our own reasons.  We don’t want to go through the trials and tribulations of the book of Revelation.  This verse showed me that we are allowed to ask for things for ourselves, but need to remember to keep it under God’s control.  Your will be done above my own, Lord.  Even though I want to meet my husband so badly, I want Your plan for my life to take place even more so than that desire.

Point number two… I never noticed before that Jesus doesn’t really pray for all of His friends and family… Maybe when we do, we should add onto that prayer, “Your will be done”.  I think it is God’s will for everyone to go to Heaven to be with Him, so wouldn’t it be best to put it into His hands?

Point number three… I often feel guilty when I don’t pray for my unsaved friends and family over and over and over again… But verse eight says, “They think their prayers are answered merely by repeating their words again and again. Don’t be like them, for your Father knows exactly what you need even before you ask Him!” My first experience talking to God occurred a long time ago.  I was doubting my salvation at the time.  That morning, I happened to be home alone, so I started my Bible time in the morning and asked God if I was saved.  Before I could even finish the question “Am I sav…” I heard a “YES”. As the day progressed, I spent most of it talking to God like I would any other person.  It was Awesome! During our “chat” I asked God if I needed to pray for the salvation of certain people in my life over and over again… I felt like He told me, “no”.  It has been over 15 years since that day, so I don’t remember exactly His answer… But it was something to the effect of, “I know exactly what you need even before you ask Me.” He was not telling me to stop asking altogether, but was freeing me from the burden of “religiously” having to pray for each person every day.  God knows our hearts.  He knows that I desire for my friend to come to know Him as his true Savior and Lord.  He knows that I desire for every one of my relatives to come to know Him.  He knows that I desire for my cousins to find their purpose in life, and to follow Him every step of the way.  He knows that I want to protect my friends and family from bad relationships…  He knows all of my thoughts and intentions.

Since this blog is called “Inspired by Lyrics”, it was only fitting that a particular song popped into my head regarding this morning’s topic: “Whatever” by Steven Curtis Chapman.  Please listen to the words carefully.  Can you truly tell God, I’ll do “Whatever” you say?  I’m working on it, but don’t know that I am there yet.

What do you get out of “The Lord’s Prayer”? Did anything stand out to you that you had not noticed before? I’d love to hear about it in the comments below!

Blessings!

~ S*