Have you ever had one of those days when you just want to scream at the top of your lungs!?! Today is one of those days for me...
Last year, I thought that God told me I would meet my future husband before the month of September hit... I thought I was going to get married to this mystery man over Labor Day weekend of last year. I'm not sure where I went wrong...
Leading up to September, I talked to God just like I would talk to anyone. It was an easy back and forth conversation between us. I would talk to Him throughout the day every day. But since September first... It hasn't been that easy.
I have been struggling with thoughts and doubt ever since. What if most of the stuff I "heard" wasn't God speaking to me at all? What if it was just my brain tricking me into predicting everything I was hoping and dreaming for? I don't know the answers to these questions. I don't know how to ask God these questions... What do I do?
A song came on the radio one day after I'd had a huge counseling session with my mom about the events of last year. It was exactly what I needed at the moment. The lyrics to the song "I Will Trust in YOU" by Lauren Daigle were exactly what I have been thinking/praying/feeling these past few months. And I would love for you to listen to this song.
The lyrics of this song are my prayer to God right now. I am still having to do battle every day with my thoughts and emotions about what happened last year, but I am trusting God no matter what!
Yes, my relationship with my Lord and Savior is a bit different than it was last year. I question things a lot more than ever before... I don't have those everyday one on one conversations... I believe those conversations are still a possibility, but honestly, I'm not sure how to go about it right now... BUT, I still believe in Jesus! I still believe what the Word says! I still pray everyday. I still read my Bible everyday. I still trust God with my life.
I do NOT know what God's plan for my life is... I question it everyday. But I will trust God with my life and His plan for it, no matter what!
~ S*
Last year, I thought that God told me I would meet my future husband before the month of September hit... I thought I was going to get married to this mystery man over Labor Day weekend of last year. I'm not sure where I went wrong...
Leading up to September, I talked to God just like I would talk to anyone. It was an easy back and forth conversation between us. I would talk to Him throughout the day every day. But since September first... It hasn't been that easy.
I have been struggling with thoughts and doubt ever since. What if most of the stuff I "heard" wasn't God speaking to me at all? What if it was just my brain tricking me into predicting everything I was hoping and dreaming for? I don't know the answers to these questions. I don't know how to ask God these questions... What do I do?
A song came on the radio one day after I'd had a huge counseling session with my mom about the events of last year. It was exactly what I needed at the moment. The lyrics to the song "I Will Trust in YOU" by Lauren Daigle were exactly what I have been thinking/praying/feeling these past few months. And I would love for you to listen to this song.
The lyrics of this song are my prayer to God right now. I am still having to do battle every day with my thoughts and emotions about what happened last year, but I am trusting God no matter what!
Yes, my relationship with my Lord and Savior is a bit different than it was last year. I question things a lot more than ever before... I don't have those everyday one on one conversations... I believe those conversations are still a possibility, but honestly, I'm not sure how to go about it right now... BUT, I still believe in Jesus! I still believe what the Word says! I still pray everyday. I still read my Bible everyday. I still trust God with my life.
I do NOT know what God's plan for my life is... I question it everyday. But I will trust God with my life and His plan for it, no matter what!
~ S*
A good prayer for us when we are questioning God's plan is Colossians 1:9-12. Another one is Ephesians 1:16-20. I insert myself, family, etc... when praying to personalize it. Give it a try. Praying God's word is very effective.
ReplyDeleteLove,Dad
Posting your thoughts along with a corresponding song is a great idea - I'm liking it! And for those of us who like words, it's great that you focus on the lyrics of the song. I've always thought that the words in a piece of music can have some profound influence.
ReplyDeleteLove you!